Stussy Sweater.

She is leaving now.
She is just packing up her things.
I'm just sitting here hoping she will change her mind and not pack my favorite sweater.
She just took my heart and I was hoping to hide whilst she was gone.
But I guess she had to take that too.
She is probably with someone else already.
She was just waiting and giving me more time whilst she figured out how to leave me.
I used to leave everyone.
Now she is leaving me.

Idk.

Idk anymore.
Idk what I'm doing anymore.
I'm so lost.
She loves me.
She hates me.
She wants me.
She can't stand me.
She is cheating on me.
And I'm letting her.
There is a reason why I've become so complacent tho.
It starts with a "k" and ends with an "a".
I'm doing hard time and I can't wait for my community service to finally be over.
How long must I endure this purgatory.
Just a little longer.
Thats what I tell myself when I want to just die and be done with it all.
Dear girl of my dreams.
I love you.
I need you.
I want you.
Come to me now.
Be with me now.
Why won't you.
Come love me like you were always meant to.
Come and love me now.

Picasso Limited Edition.

It was like this dream I had once. That she was with someone else and then we bumped into each other and I was like not the one she left with. Except when I drove away this time, I didn't wake up after. It's crazy how you can have this life with someone but in the end all it is, is some box with stuff in it. 

Our whole relationship somehow condensed in that box, a blanket, pictures, music, a candle, a picasso limited edition and some pareos. Bye u'i. 

I wonder what they did after I left. They probably talked about me endlessly the whole night. How much I suck, how terrible I am, how selfish, how self centered. How about that. 

Fresh kill.

Is there like some class in school that teaches girls how to do fresh kills? 

Because you are getting kinda close and I know you haven't eaten a good meal in days.

But I will love you and give you what you need.

To the last drop, I will bleed.

I will give it to you.

Take it and leave but don't go.