Unloveable.

I only want her to.
But she doesn't.
I only hope she will.
But she won't.
I only dream of it.
But she will never.
I only pray to god.
But he is a myth.
He is a fifth.
Of whatever I am.
Because I am nothing now.
She played me.
She was bored.
So she played me.
I believed because I just wanted to trust someone.
I just waned to trust her.
She told me a million times how she was darkness.
She told me a hundred thousand times how she never cares.
But I never listened.
I wanted to believe I was special.
I was different.
I mattered.
I wasn't like the rest.
The rest of those fools.
But instead, I was the most foolish.
She packed her bags in the night.
She left at 1am in the morning.
Thats when I found her things missing.
I want to say I was surprised.
But I always knew she would leave me.
They always do.
They always leave me.
I beg for them to stay in mind.
But they never listen.
They never stay.
They never say why.
They never say they miss me.
They never say they want me back.
They never say please stay forever.
No one has ever said, u'i marry me.
Be with me.
No they never have.
probably because no one wants me like that.
They just want to mute me.
They only want me, when they want something from me.
Then, I can go away now.
So, I do.
I do.
I do.
Yah, I was born like this.
I was the ultimate mistake.
I shouldn't be here.
I'm not here now.
I know why no one can love me.